Lets get personal.

  I want this blog to be more than a blog. A place where I can say what I want, and how I feel. I want it to be a place for people to come for a good read, a place for people to connect. A place with no judgment... and that's what I'm going to talk about today. Judgment.

  Everyone judges people. Maybe it's someone's personality, their home, the things they have, who they are, or... what I think is the most common judgment... their looks. The world has been a place where you are judged on the way you look. Don't believe me? Look at all the movies out there. The main actor has a six pack, perfect hair, perfect smile, perfect life... or look at the main actress. She has a smoking hot body, long shinny hair, flawless skin... etc.  Girls want a guy with a six pack, and guys want a girl with a sexy bod. Its true. It always has been, and sadly possibly always will be.

 Why do we live in a world where you have to be fit, skinny and muscular to be beautiful?

 Here's something personal for ya... I haven't swam with my shirt off in 10 years. I haven't because I'm scared of what people will think. I don't want them to judge me. Yes, it sucks. I remember going through Jr. High and High School with this fear. I hated gym class not because of the exercise, or the teams, I hated it because the showers we had to take after. Everyone was so comfortable taking their shirt off in front of everybody, stripping down, and showering like nothing was wrong. While I waited until everyone was done, and still walked it with my towel wrapped around my body.

 I remember going to a day camp for scouts one summer, and one of the activities we had to do was swim. Lets just say I didn't participate in that activity. I didn't "feel well"...I didn't feel normal. I didn't feel normal because I guy my age shouldn't feel scared to talk off his shirt. He shouldn't have to see and HEAR peoples judgment if the did see him with his shirt off. I still feel this way today... It's gotten better, but sometimes I feel unworthy to be seen. I feel like I need to hide. I don't want to feel this way anymore, and I won't. THIS is why I'm choosing to lose weight... THAT is why I'm writing this blog.  For me, and everyone else out there who feels judged. We can do it.

--------NOW FOR THE GOOD NEWS-------

   So I didn't meet my goal this week like I wanted to, but it's ok. I lost 4.2 pounds this past week. Yeah I'm happy with that. I'm going to try to do better this week though. I drank lots of water this week. I tired to drink at least 3 liters of water a day. I did really well counting my points this week also. This week I want to work on not eating past 8PM. I feel like I tend to get more hungry at night time. I do good all day, and then at night time I kinda lose it. So that is my goal this week. I hope to lose 3-4 more pounds. :) Please leave your (nice) comments below, not only do they make my day, but they are my motivation.

279.8 - 4.2 =

275.6