A new post! ABOUT TIME!

Ok guys, sorry it took me so long to write a post. IDK if people are even reading this, but I will still write because it keeps me some what motivated. Anyway. I've changed a lot about my diet. I'm not really doing weight watchers anymore. Although I love that weight loss plan, and it's helped me tons. I'm trying something new. As of Friday (today is Monday), I am no longer eating carbs and sugars. I thought it would be really hard, but it actually isn't that bad. I love veggies, so that is helping a lot also.

  So that's my new update. I know it's short, but I hope the next post will be better.

266.5- 5.1 =

261. 4

new plan...

 

  Ok, here's the deal. I know I haven't been posting every week like I use to. SOOO... From now on, I'm going to post a post at the beginning of the month instead of every week. That way I will have more to talk about, and hopefully a bigger pounds lost number..

 

  So, over the past few weeks, things have been good. I have been moving up and down from the 266 and 265 pound mark. It's frustrating. I guess you can say that I've reached a plateau. So this means that I need to now lower my daily number and exercise a bunch more.  Even though I feel like I've been exercising my butt off. I seriously have like 5 people who want me to be their exercise buddy, and want me to do everything with them. I was really overwhelmed by this, and in result super sore. So I kinda just had a day off, and didn't do anything with anyone! HAHA.. I didn't eat bad, I just didn't move on that day. Just sat around. It was good, and now I'm ready to get up, get out, and get a move on!

 

  So may is my exercise month. I'm going to try and do at least 30 minutes every single day. I have one friend who wants me to go biking with them. I will go. I have one friend who wants me to go running with them. I will go. I have one friend who wants me to go to the gym with them and swim with them. I will go. I have one friend who wants me to do P90X with them (heaven help me). I will go. I will do as much as I can, and eat as healthy as I can, so that my next post will be great.

 

  So, lets get a move on. I need to try and find my motivation again. Lets get my body back.

See you in a month! :)

Maybe by then I can have some new before and after pictures. :)

 

265.8 + 0.7 =

 266.5

3 weeks worth of posts wrapped up into 1..

  I know I know.... I haven't blogged in 3 weeks. It's my fault, but you should know better... after all, I'm lazy. HAHA.. Just kidding. Anyway. I have finally found the energy to write a post. But all 3 weeks are going to be on one post. So... yeah... enjoy.

 

  So I haven't gained any weight in the past few week. So that's good news. I've lost weight all 3 weeks, but unfortunately, it's not a big amount of weight lost. Just a couple pounds. Which sucks... but it is still good. Chase and I still go to the gym every week, but we haven't been going as much.

 

  Some good news... I have 2 more weeks of school left, and then it is summer break for me! So excited. I'm making a garden in my yard, and it is looking great. Last, I auditioned for Fiddler on the Roof, and I got a part! I'm going to play the part of Mendel the Rabi's son. So that will be fun.

 

  Well, I hope you guys are having a great spring, and staying on your diet. If you want to leave topics for me to discuss and talk about on here, than feel free to tell me in the comment box. :) Stay cool.

 

week one

268.4 - 1.6 =

266.8

 

week two

266.8 - .4 =

 266.4

 

Week three

266.4 - .6 =

265.8

Stayed the same.

Well this week wasn't... to exciting.. The pool has been closed all week. So I couldn't really go swimming. So I just stayed on my diet as best I could. I turns out that I didn't lose or gain anything this week. I just stayed the same. I guess it's better than gaining, but I still wanted to have the satisfaction of losing something. But it's ok, there is always next week. That's what you always need to tell yourself when ever you had a bad week. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Just try your hardest, and hope for the best.

268.4- 0 =

 268. 4

Spring is coming...

  
   Well, I only lost 0.6 this week. I'm ok with it, I mean I lost a big number last week. It starting to feel like spring again, which makes me happy. This means I can start to go running outside again. YAY! I love to run. I've participated in many 5Ks last year. I want to try and work on a 10K this year. I guess we will see what happens. I'm also getting ready to plant a garden. Gardens are so much fun, and you get lots of great veggies from it. I can't wait for spring and summer!!

 

269 - 0.6 = 

268.4

The bully and the bullied... are they the same person?

 

   So today's post is going to be a little different. I'm going to use 'gifs' to make things interesting, and easier to understand.
  
   My post today is about bullying. We all know what bullying is. We all know that there are many different kinds of bullying. But do we really know who the bully is? Who's the bully truly is your life? Believe it or not, but you just might be your own bully.

 

  While I was in school (mostly Jr. High) I was bullied. Now it wasn't that bad. But it did hurt. I was bullied because... yup, you guessed it, my weight. Like I've said before, I've ALWAYS been the 'bigger guy'. Not only did I know this already, but I had many people tell it to my face also. I've been called the classic names, like fat...big... etc. But I 've got to say, the ones that hurt the most, were people trying to be funny about it. For example... I remember when I was in Jr. High, someone said that when I walk down the hall, I should walk as close to the wall as possible because I take up to much room. Or another example, I went to a Halloween dance in Jr. High, and I dressed up in one of those costumes that has a fan in the back and it blows the costume up into something big. I was a plumber. I thought it was the funniest costume ever. It made it look like I was 600 LBS, I had a plumber butt, and the shirt looked like it was 3 sizes to small. I walked into the dance, still thinking this was the best costume ever, and then the first thing someone said to me was... "Rob, why didn't you dress up?"

 

You hear these words, and you try and act like nothing is wrong.

You laugh along with them.

 

On the outside, you look like this...

 

 

 But really, on the inside you look like this...

 

 

  Everyone has these days. But really, what are a few words? Do these words really define who you are? Well, the answer to that is... only if you let them.

  In my drawing class this week, we talked about this very thing. You are your own bully. You are the one who chooses to have these words effect you. It's true. We can choose to let it define us, or we can chose to let it go. My drawing teacher said that if we sit and focus on all the negative thoughts we have, whether it be about ourselves, or others, those negative thoughts will add up. Here, think of it this way... Imagine that every negative thought you think is a penny. One penny doesn't do very much... but then they begin to add up. Soon you have 20 pennies. 60 pennies. 200 pennies. 3,000 pennies. You get the picture... After awhile, you are swimming in pennies or in other words, you are swimming in your negative thoughts. 

 

 

 

    My teacher then went on to explain, that the more negative thoughts we have, the more negative, sad, and depressed we become. It's our choice. Yes, others may call you names, but its you and you alone who decides to have it effect you. My teacher then went around the class, and we had to say one positive thing about ourselves out loud. I was scared to do this... but the entire class did it, and so did I. Let me tell you.... it might be hard to give yourself a compliment, but it makes everything that much better. It works. So that's what I want you to do right now, I want you to give yourself a compliment. OUT LOUD! Say it. Say... you are creative, kind, beautiful, pretty, smart, outgoing... Whatever you want to say. Say it now. No joke. Out loud. If anyone hears you, and asks what you are doing, just smile, and compliment them also. It works. No more negative thought, only positive.

 

 

 

   Here is a really awesome story, I don't know if you guys have read it before, but it goes along really well with this post. So I'm going to share it... 

 

A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they'd be asked the "half empty or half full" question. Instead, with a smile on her face, she inquired: ..."How heavy is this glass of water?"

Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. to 20 oz.

She replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, it's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my arm. If I hold it for a day, my arm will feel numb and paralyzed. In each case, the weight of the glass doesn't change, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes." She continued, "The stresses and worries in life are like that glass of water. Think about them for a while and nothing happens. Think about them a bit longer and they begin to hurt. And if you think about them all day long, you will feel paralyzed – incapable of doing anything."

It’s important to remember to let go of your stresses. As early in the evening as you can, put all your burdens down. Don't carry them through the evening and into the night. Remember to put the glass down!

 

 

  So I hope this post made sense. What I'm trying to say here is, don't be your own bully. People are going to judge, and call you names, what ever they may be, but it's your choice to let them go or not. The only person who gets the right to define who you are is yourself. When someone calls you a name, don't accepted it, you need to reject it. Prove them wrong. Show them who you really are. You are a person. A person with feelings. You are a person who is beautiful.

 

 

 

Don't be a bully.

Don't judge.

Think positive.

 

 

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  Alright, now for my weight loss. Well, this week I've lost 2.6 LBS. FINALLY!! I'm so happy about this. I've also lost about 3 inches around my belly since the start. After two bad weeks of gaining, I am now back in the 60s., which is good. I'm still doing LOTS of swimming with my friend Chase. We go at least 4 times a week for about 2 hours of swimming. We even sometimes lift weights and bike or run before. I can feel and see a different. I feels more toned and muscular, and healthier. It's taking sometime, but I can see and feel a difference fat wise also. I'm not giving this swimming thing up. It's seriously the best thing that has happened to me, to bad I didn't think of it before. Swimming is such a great workout, and I seriously recommend it. GO SWIMMING! My goal this week is just to lose. I don't really care how much, as long as I lose something.

 

 

271.6 - 2.6 =

269

 

 

 

 

When all hope is lost, angels lift you up...

Well, this week was horrible for me. I was heart broken, devastated, and I lost my hope...

  At the beginning of the week, I was super stressed. I had so many things happening, and no time to do it in. I had to write a 5 page essay for my English class that was due on Tuesday, I had a phone interview for the Disney College Program on Tuesday morning, and I had to give a presentation in my drawing class on Tuesday as well. Tuesday was a big day for me. But I got through it.

   I'm not sure if you guys know, but I've been trying to get into the Disney College Program for a year now. I've applied 3 times, and I've had 3 phone interviews with them. The third one was on Tuesday. I really really want to get into the program. It's my biggest dream to work for the mouse. It's all I think about. I was so excited to apply this month. If I was accepted, I would leave in August to go work at one of the Disney Parks. It also was motivation for me. I wanted to lose the weight for the program. It's what kept me going on my weight loss.
  
   But, on Friday, I got denied for the program. I was devastated. I was heart broken. I didn't know what to do or think. I gave up. I gave up on working out, I gave up eating healthy. I thought, what's the point. There is no point for me to keep moving forward, no point for me to lose the wait. No point for anything. I just didn't care. It also didn't help that it was the day after Valentines Day when I found out. There was chocolate and cookies everywhere, and I gave in, and I regret it.

On top of it all, I weighed in today, and gained a pound. This just added to everything. This didn't help at all. I swam at least 3 time this week, did some cardio, and even lifted some weights. So maybe it muscle I gained, but who knows. I don't want to gain, I want to lose!! I went swimming again today with my friend, and I felt uncomfortable. I felt like everyone was starring at me. I was just the "big" guy there. I felt judged. This just made me more upset. Upset at myself, upset at the world, just UPSET! Everything was going wrong, and I lost any motivation that I had left.
And then, I got this message on Facebook from a friend named Sierra who I've never met before. She also applied for the Disney College Program and got denied. This is what she said...

 Hey Robby! I just wanted to say thank you for your weight loss blog!! You had inspired me to join weight watchers, too! I just had my weigh in (I've been doing it for a month today) and I've lost 21.7 pounds!! I owe it to you. And even though I really wanted to be in the DCP for this fall, we now have a few extra months to get in shape!!! You will get in this next time. I know it. :) and thank you THANK YOU THANK YOU again for being an inspiration to me!!!

This seriously made my WEEK! I was so freaking proud of her. 21 pounds in one month, HOLLY CRAP! That is so good. I was so happy when I read this, and my motivation sky rocketed. Out of all the devastation I've had this week, she was there to lift me up. She didn't know that I was down, but yet she lifted my up, dusted me off, and told me to keep going. Thanks so much Sierra! Keep going strong girl! I'm so proud.

270.06 + 1.0 =

271.06

Problems...

Ok ladies and gents. I have a problem. I gained this week. Yup, that's right. I didn't want to write this post, because I felt ashamed, but I have to. So here it is.

First. I didn't gain that much. I only gained 0.8 LBS. So not even a pound. But it sucks, because I am back into the 270s.

Second. I think I gained this week because of two things. Those things are cookies and swimming.

Cookies... my mom decided she wanted to make cookies at the beginning of the week. There is one thing you got to know. My mom makes the best cookies in the world. Seriously though... so good. So not only did she make cookies, she made like 5 batched of them. THEY WERE EVERYWHERE!! Now, I'm not saying that my mom making cookies is the reason why I gained. I take full responsibility. Cookies are my weakness. I know this now. HAHA.. But I had like 2-3 cookies a day!! Yeah, I counted them into my diet, and thought it was ok, but I guess not. NO MORE COOKIES!!

Swimming... I swam a couple of times this week. I went with my friend Chase. We go swimming for fun, we don't really swim laps or anything. But this week I tried to move a little more than I usually do while swimming. I told myself that I should go to the deep end, and swim with just my legs for 10 mins. I couldn't touch the ground, or the walls, or use my arms. So there I was, with my arms tucked behind my back, kicking my legs for ten mins trying to keep my chin above the water. It sounds easy, but boy did it hurt after. I could feel the burn in my legs. I was building muscle! That night I felt it too.

So there ya go. I gained. But maybe it wasn't all fat. I bet I gained muscle this week from swimming, and you know what, I bet next week I will build more muscle, because Chase and I are going to go to the gym and swim at least 3 times next week. I guess we will just see what happens. But I should lay off the sweets. :P

269.8 + 0.8 =

270.6

10 pound prize!

   So earlier this week, I was feeling a little discouraged. I started to feel like no matter what I did, I was never going to obtain the look/shape I want. I told myself what's the point. Yes, I can lose all this weight, but I'm always going to be big. I'm always going to be fat. This was very hard for me, and I'm not going to lie, I lost some of my hope for awhile. I went online and watched a few weight loss stories from other people, and I realized it is possible. Yeah, it's going to be hard, and it's going to take some time... a lot of time. But most of all, it's going to take effort. It's not going to be handed to me. It's not only my goal, but it's my struggle. It's only as hard as you make it out to be. I'm just going to try my best everyday for as long as it takes. I'm going to keep writing in this blog. I'm going to keep eating healthy, and I'm going to stay strong. It's going to work, but only if I work. Everyday is a new day. I just need to take it one day at a time.

   So, I love to swim. Swimming is not only a blast, but it is such a GOOD workout! You can burn so many calories from just a an hour or two of swimming. I'm going to try and go every other day from now on. I feel the reason why I lost the weight I lost this week is because of swimming. I suggest you go swimming if you are looking for a fun and easy workout.

  Well, as you can see from the title of this post, I lost 3 pounds this week, and I've reached my first goal. 10 pounds! I'm so happy! It took longer then I wanted, but hey, I'm here. I finally got my prize for losing 10 pounds. I go to go to McDonald's for dinner tonight! That was my prize. Yup, I rewarded myself with food. Just a small meal, and it was delicious. I didn't just reach my 10 pound goal, I went beyond it! I've lost a little over 12 pounds total since I've started! YEAHHH BUDDY! Now I just need to figure out what my next 10 pound prize will be, and get started. What do you suggest?

272.8 - 3 =

269.8

Shame on you.

   Today, I want to talk about something that really hit me earlier this week. On Friday morning, I turned on the news and shockingly I was watching a skit about obesity. They were talking about some guy (who thinks he knows everything) who said that the best way for people to lose weight is shame. Now when I say shame I mean shaming for their size, what they look like and how they aren't "normal." He thinks that if we shame them like this, then they would want to lose weight to make it stop. Now, this guy goes on to tell us that we did it to smokers, why can't we do it to obese people? First off, we didn't "Shame" smokers for what they looked like or who they were. In fact, I don't remember anyone shaming a smoker. All I've seen is people giving their opinions on how bad smoking can be, and how it damages the body. There wasn't any shame thursted upon their looks or their self-esteem. No one said "Shame on you for being a smoker, you aren't normal."

  Yes, being over weight or over eating is in fact bad for you. Maybe just as bad as smoking. Most people don't understand that sometimes obese people are obese because they might have an illness or disability that makes them that way, it's not that they eat everything in sight, or they don't exercise. It's funny, because I was looking on the New's facebook page about this article, and someone commented and said something like this... "I'm a doctor, and 7 out 10 people are over weight because they have an illness that makes it harder for their bodies to lose weight. Shaming them isn't going to fix anything."... It's true. It isn't a good thing to be over weight, and things should change. But not in this way.

   I feel, being someone who has been bigger all his life, that over weight people already feel shame in many different ways. They feel ashamed to look in the mirror, ashamed of going to a swimming pool, ashamed of the way they look. I know for me, I've felt this many times. Trust me when I say this, we don't need more of it on our shoulders. To me it's bullying, and isn't that what we are teaching children not to do? It brings more shame into the heart, and also grief. We shouldn't be shaming people for the way they look or who they are. It makes me sick that people would think that it's ok. We are all human. It's that simple. No matter who we are, where we are from, what we look like, or what we believe in... WE ARE HUMAN.

  I think the best thing we could do would be positive thoughts and feelings toward each other. No more bullying, no more hate, and no more shame. Has anyone ever heard of positivity? That's the answer. Also, I think we should focus on things such as... the price of a gym pass. A normal gym pass cost around 40-60 bucks. You see... we don't want to go to the gym already people, and making us pay buckets of money in order to go isn't going to help. We should lower the cost, and play nice.

Anyway... Let me get off my soap box now......

  When I weighed in this week I was some what disappointed, but it's ok. I lost 1.4 lbs. I was disappointed because I wanted to lose at least 2.3 lbs because then I would have lost 10 pounds total so far and I would have gotten my 10 pound prize. HAHA.. But it's all good. At least I'm still losing right? Right. This week I went swimming with some friends. I loved it. I want to go back at least 3 times a week now. Swimming is such great exercise, and you burn so much calories while doing it. I'm not really sure how much I want to lose this week. I just want to get past my 10 pound mark, so I can get my prize! HAHA.. So if I get past that, then I will be happy. Thanks for the comments guys. Keep them coming! You are my motivation.

274.2 - 1.4 =

272.8

Set your goals and don't drink your calories.

  If there is one thing us Americans are good at besides being obese, is setting goals. To me, that's the key to weigh loss. You really need to set goals, and have a prize for achieving that goal. This is what I do... for every ten pounds I lose, I get something. I doesn't matter what that something is, it could be a new shirt, shoes, a movie, something fun or even food. YES I SAID YOU CAN REWARD YOURSELF WITH FOOD! Now don't pig out. Don't think... I lose ten pounds a get to eat a cake. No. Just one meal or one nice treat. This helps me because instead of focusing on my 80 pound goal, I just take it 10 pounds at a time. It works so you don't get intimidated, and it makes it go by faster. Before you know it, you will have lost 30 pounds, and have received 3 prizes.

  Soda pop is your biggest enemy. Did you know that average American gains 10 pounds a year just from soda? It's true! Lets change that, and make it 10 pounds lost every year from not drinking soda. Try to switch to diet soda, at least you are cutting out the sugar and calories. But diet soda can still be bad for you. So, if you can, just don't drink any soda. Instead, drink lots of water. Water boost your metabolism, fills you up, and hydrates you, which is better for your work outs. No more soda. This is how I think of it. When ever I want a sprite (sprite is my favorite) or any other soda. I tell myself.. "You can't afford it." It's true. It's so bad to drink your calories. It's not worth it in the long run. literally.

   Anyway, this week I lost 1.4 LBS. Which isn't bad, but I feel like I can do SOOOO much better. That's my goal this week, doing better. I want to lose 2.5 LBS this week. If I do lose 2.5 LBS then I will have lost a little over 10 LBS since the I've started!!! WOOT! That means I will be that much closer to my ultimate goal, and I also will have gotten a prize. :)

 

275.6 - 1.4 =

 

274.2

 

Lets get personal.

  I want this blog to be more than a blog. A place where I can say what I want, and how I feel. I want it to be a place for people to come for a good read, a place for people to connect. A place with no judgment... and that's what I'm going to talk about today. Judgment.

  Everyone judges people. Maybe it's someone's personality, their home, the things they have, who they are, or... what I think is the most common judgment... their looks. The world has been a place where you are judged on the way you look. Don't believe me? Look at all the movies out there. The main actor has a six pack, perfect hair, perfect smile, perfect life... or look at the main actress. She has a smoking hot body, long shinny hair, flawless skin... etc.  Girls want a guy with a six pack, and guys want a girl with a sexy bod. Its true. It always has been, and sadly possibly always will be.

 Why do we live in a world where you have to be fit, skinny and muscular to be beautiful?

 Here's something personal for ya... I haven't swam with my shirt off in 10 years. I haven't because I'm scared of what people will think. I don't want them to judge me. Yes, it sucks. I remember going through Jr. High and High School with this fear. I hated gym class not because of the exercise, or the teams, I hated it because the showers we had to take after. Everyone was so comfortable taking their shirt off in front of everybody, stripping down, and showering like nothing was wrong. While I waited until everyone was done, and still walked it with my towel wrapped around my body.

 I remember going to a day camp for scouts one summer, and one of the activities we had to do was swim. Lets just say I didn't participate in that activity. I didn't "feel well"...I didn't feel normal. I didn't feel normal because I guy my age shouldn't feel scared to talk off his shirt. He shouldn't have to see and HEAR peoples judgment if the did see him with his shirt off. I still feel this way today... It's gotten better, but sometimes I feel unworthy to be seen. I feel like I need to hide. I don't want to feel this way anymore, and I won't. THIS is why I'm choosing to lose weight... THAT is why I'm writing this blog.  For me, and everyone else out there who feels judged. We can do it.

--------NOW FOR THE GOOD NEWS-------

   So I didn't meet my goal this week like I wanted to, but it's ok. I lost 4.2 pounds this past week. Yeah I'm happy with that. I'm going to try to do better this week though. I drank lots of water this week. I tired to drink at least 3 liters of water a day. I did really well counting my points this week also. This week I want to work on not eating past 8PM. I feel like I tend to get more hungry at night time. I do good all day, and then at night time I kinda lose it. So that is my goal this week. I hope to lose 3-4 more pounds. :) Please leave your (nice) comments below, not only do they make my day, but they are my motivation.

279.8 - 4.2 =

275.6

And we're off...

   Well... here's the deal. Starting a diet on a Thursday isn't really the best thing. Let me explain. So, I started my diet last Thursday, so about 4 days ago. It wasn't my best choice. Especially since it was the day before the weekend. Thursday night my friend and I went and got some fast food. It's what we like to call it "Our last fast food night"... which...we say a lot. My friend was scheduled to get her wisdom teeth out the next morning, so we had to get food for her "Last meal." I didn't get that much fast food, but to say the least, I still got some. But to be honest, it really was our last time. I haven't been through a drive thru since.
   That being said, as of today (Monday) my diet has officially started. I'm counting my points, no fast food, no soda, more running, more gym. You see, I feel like I now have more of a desire to be more healthy, when on Thursday it was just a New Years resolution. I feel more motivated. I'm ready!
   So here's the good news, I lost 1.6 LBS in the past 4 days. So that's good, and I'm happy about it. This week I hope to lose at least 7 to 8 LBS. Yeah... that sounds like a lot, but everyone tends to lose a big number on there first week of their diet. So I guess we will see what happens.

281.4 - 1.6 =

279.8

Stupid Fat and Lazy.

 

  I'm writing this blog for motivation. Motivation to lose weight. My goal is to take off 85 pounds. I've been "bigger" almost all my life. To be specific, it all began in the 3rd grade. I'm not sure what happened actually... my Mom says it's just genetics. But the world sees it as me being stupid about my eating choices and just me being lazy. I don't think that's true. It's not like I eat fast food everyday, and eat buckets of ice cream and candy. It's not that I don't exercise, I do! In fact I like to run, and participate in 5Ks.

   I'm not sure exactly what it is, maybe it's a mixture of a lot of things. But what I am sure of is that I want it gone. I want it over. I'm ready. I'm ready to be someone new, to look like someone new. I've lost weight in the past, I lost about 35-40 LBS. It was great, I felt great. But I didn't keep it up, and slowly, I gained what I lost.

   So here is me starting over. It is now 2013, and my goal this year is, like I said before is to lose 85 LBS. My starting weight is 281. There I said it, it's out there. I want to start running at least 4 times a week, and eating better. I'm going to go on weight watchers, which is how I lost my weight before. It works, I enjoy it. So yes, it will be hard. It won't be easy to start, but it needs to be done. It needs to happen now. So again this blog is for motivation. To keep me going. I hope to write a post every week until I reach my goal. I hope you follow along on my with me.

 

This is my Mission Slimpossible.



 



 

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