Well, this week was horrible for me. I was heart broken, devastated, and I lost my hope...
At the beginning of the week, I was super stressed. I had so many things happening, and no time to do it in. I had to write a 5 page essay for my English class that was due on Tuesday, I had a phone interview for the Disney College Program on Tuesday morning, and I had to give a presentation in my drawing class on Tuesday as well. Tuesday was a big day for me. But I got through it.
I'm not sure if you guys know, but I've been trying to get into the Disney College Program for a year now. I've applied 3 times, and I've had 3 phone interviews with them. The third one was on Tuesday. I really really want to get into the program. It's my biggest dream to work for the mouse. It's all I think about. I was so excited to apply this month. If I was accepted, I would leave in August to go work at one of the Disney Parks. It also was motivation for me. I wanted to lose the weight for the program. It's what kept me going on my weight loss.
But, on Friday, I got denied for the program. I was devastated. I was heart broken. I didn't know what to do or think. I gave up. I gave up on working out, I gave up eating healthy. I thought, what's the point. There is no point for me to keep moving forward, no point for me to lose the wait. No point for anything. I just didn't care. It also didn't help that it was the day after Valentines Day when I found out. There was chocolate and cookies everywhere, and I gave in, and I regret it.
On top of it all, I weighed in today, and gained a pound. This just added to everything. This didn't help at all. I swam at least 3 time this week, did some cardio, and even lifted some weights. So maybe it muscle I gained, but who knows. I don't want to gain, I want to lose!! I went swimming again today with my friend, and I felt uncomfortable. I felt like everyone was starring at me. I was just the "big" guy there. I felt judged. This just made me more upset. Upset at myself, upset at the world, just UPSET! Everything was going wrong, and I lost any motivation that I had left.
And then, I got this message on Facebook from a friend named Sierra who I've never met before. She also applied for the Disney College Program and got denied. This is what she said...
Hey Robby! I just wanted to say thank you for your weight loss blog!! You had inspired me to join weight watchers, too! I just had my weigh in (I've been doing it for a month today) and I've lost 21.7 pounds!! I owe it to you. And even though I really wanted to be in the DCP for this fall, we now have a few extra months to get in shape!!! You will get in this next time. I know it. and thank you THANK YOU THANK YOU again for being an inspiration to me!!!
This seriously made my WEEK! I was so freaking proud of her. 21 pounds in one month, HOLLY CRAP! That is so good. I was so happy when I read this, and my motivation sky rocketed. Out of all the devastation I've had this week, she was there to lift me up. She didn't know that I was down, but yet she lifted my up, dusted me off, and told me to keep going. Thanks so much Sierra! Keep going strong girl! I'm so proud.
270.06 + 1.0 =
271.06
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